Rocky Road.

It's been a really rough road
for me.

I need time.
Time to think and set my priorities
right.
Too many commitments, too many
disappointments.

Parents.
Studies.
Religion.
CCA.
You.


I'm a mess right now.
Disappointment after disappointment.
I'm too weak.

All I could do was to run away from all
my problems, so I thought.


Dear M&D,

I know I've disappointed you too many
times. I know I haven't been on my best
behaviour lately. I've troubled everyone
so much. I've received too much and gave
too little. You have given me everything
but all I did was to give you nothing
in return. No results, no nothing at all.
I can never live without you two.
I can never imagine life without the both of you.
I need you and I hope that you won't give up
on me.
I need you both.


Dear R,

I need you to improve. I need to.
It's not an option, it's a must.
I'll give more attention to you.
Whatever it is, you hold my future.
And to get what I want, I need to work
harder this time round.
I promise, with all my heart,
I'll put in the best in what I do.


Dear A,

I haven't been doing what I'm suppose
to lately because of all my activities.
I know I've been lagging you behind.
I know that above all, you must be first
on my priority list.
Without you, I live a very un-meaningful
life. I'll set my priorities straight
this time. I need to.


Dear S,

I love you. But I need to cut it down.
I have other things to put before you.
I gotta do it right.
I gotta change this time.


Dear (L),


I'm nothing without you.
I'm a lonely person without you.
I need you.
I'm sorry.
But I need time.
Time to think.
You need space.
I've disappointed you too
many times.
I'm lost, super lost without you.
Please understand.
I'm sorry.
I miss you.
But I love you, no matter what.
Just give me time, more time.




Lowest peak right now.
It's all up to me.




N.