A night of reflection.

Wow. Looking back at the old me,
I realised that I've changed.
A lot.
I don't like it at all.


I'm mean. A whole lot of mean.
I realised that right now, I am not the
old me anymore.
I'm more prone to lashing out my feelings
to a person, I'm more vulgar, I'm more
unappreciative, I'm more selfish,
I'm more unfriendly and I'm just more
mean.
Looks like I've summarised all the
qualities of the worst person on earth.

How could I have changed into becoming a
person who I despise? Yes, I would just hate myself
right now.

I need to change.
Change for the better.
I know it's kinda sick to hear me say this
sentence of "change" over and over again but
I need to constantly remind myself to
get back on the right track so that I wont
be another train wreck.

I'm weaker now. I need support.
I could break down any minute just thinking
about all of these.


May Allah be with me throughout,
Insya'allah.