Love's a messy game.

I'm writing this blog post
with tears rolling down my eyes.
I miss you.
But, I won't say it to you.

I don't get why I am feeling this way.
About you. About us. About me.
I'm doubting everything that we have ever
promised each other.
I've never really felt this low in a
really long time. And now that I am,
I hate every single bit of it.

This is stupid.
Feelings are stupid.
I tell myself not to care about this anymore
but I can't.
I guess this is what happens when the
feeling's too strong to be ignored huh?

Right now, I feel like I don't know who you are
anymore. I don't even know who I am anymore.
It's as though we don't exist in each other's world.
I don't know what you're doing or what's going on
anymore.
All I want to do is cry.

This is too emotional for me to handle.
I don't know why I'm caught up in my own feelings.
I see your face, I see our videos.
Part of me is telling me "that's the guy I fell in
love with"
Part of me is going "What happened to us?"
:'(

I try to hide my feelings deep inside but
honestly, I can't.
This is the only medium that I can translate my
emotions to words.


I'm trying to forget this phase but I can't.
I just can't.


Now, "sorry" means nothing to me.
"I love you" doesn't solve everything anymore.

I'm losing faith.
Save me quick because I'll drown soon enough.


Nadz.