Speechless.

Look, I have spent the whole day trying to smile

and be happy after knowing about it.

I can't cause I know this bond is

too precious to even not think about. Please, try

to get your facts right first before assuming anything

at all. Guess you don't have that trust in me

till you make assumptions. Hmm, I am seriously

down right now. Okay, maybe I blame myself for not

checking whether you got the message or not.

And it was a bloody five-pages-long message.

How can I ever forget? Come on, our relationship's

too way close for me to even forget. Guess the _______

is never gonna go to you at all, since it's like no

bloody use already right? It's alright. The moment

I saw what was _______, I knew it had something

to do with me. Damn, was I crying. I thought that

you guys would never judge me that way. I donno

what happened to the bloody message but I know

I did _______, __________ and it meant from the

bottom of my heart. It hurts for me to even find out

that those assumptions came from the ones I trust most.

Plus, this is just something that's able to be resolved.

No point for me to tear or whatsoever. I'm just so down

and feel like nothing's gonna help me resolve this cause

now I know that trust was not even encrusted upon this

bonds. Only god knows the truth and I hope he'll lead

me to a better path where I know I can trust and not

be disheartened like this. Maybe it is true, I'm meant to

somehow lose something and hurt myself. Nothing's

left to say.

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