Eid Mubarak 2011.

Selamat Hari Raya to all muslims.
Today marks the day that we've(muslims)
been working hard for.
The day that we've awaited after a whole
month of fasting.


Hari Raya is not just about celebrating
and having fun. It's about knowing that you
did your best in showing Allah what you're
worth and it's about the effort you put in
in fasting. And this effort should all be put in
during the fasting period/month.

There's really no point in celebrating Hari Raya
if you don't even find the beauty of Ramadhan
first.


But whatever it is, Eid Mubarak to everyone.

Forgive me for my sins and wrongdoings.
If I have ever hurt you, I sincerely, from the
bottom of my heart, apologise.
On this day, I seek your forgiveness and I
hope you have a wonderful day ahead.


Salam, Nadz.



PS: 3 years, I miss you :'(

I miss you.

As Hari Raya is nearing,
the thought and memories of you keep
on appearing in my mind. It's been
years since you left and I'm still
thinking about you. You were
a strong man. Someone who never
fails to spreads his happiness around.

I still remembered how you love to keep cats.
You loved them like your own children.
I still remember the way you talk walk and
laugh.

Hmm, I should stop thinking about this.
I got to learn how to let go.


May Allah be with you,
Uncle Haron.

Nationals.

So, what have I been up to till this
point of time in my life?
Well, let's see.

Oh, Combined Schools tournament is over
and done with. Congrats to us all for
getting 2nd placing. Quite and achievement
with the exception of CS team's participation
for the first time.

So, recently, urm Nabs, Nazar and I
got chosen for Nationals. However, after
much contemplating, I decided that it's
not gonna be a good idea for me. Why?
Well, my examintions are coming a a few weeks
time and I can't afford to lose my focus.
I've been given too many chances, however
I've not been proving to anyone that I deserved
those chances.
I seriously need to get a grip of myself.
FOCUS. The key to everything.

Love life?
Oh, let's just say we're more in love with
each other yeah? Love doesn't stop just there.
It grows even at levels we didn't think existed.

School has been a major factor to me being so
tired nowadays. I can't even keep my eyes open.
But, I'm trying my best to keep up with my studies.
And I hope it'll all be worth it. Insya'Allah.



I miss my clique in secondary school.
I miss my teachers.
I miss my best/close friends.
I miss the camp instructors.
I miss 4E1'09.
I miss Fuchun.
I miss Thevi.
I miss Fzn.
I miss Maxine.
I miss Fareha.
I miss Abang Has.
I miss SCLs.
I miss everyone.
I miss you.


That's said, I'm done.

The Eyes Lie.

I don't want to believe what I see.
Because the eyes lie.
I hate it when I see what I don't wish to
and I end up feeling very emotional.
Sometimes, I see sights that hurts me a lot.
But I know it's just my mind playing around with
my inter-emotions.

I try to lock away these unwanted feelings of mine.
Cause I know it'll cause a havoc if
I depend on them too much.
And because the eyes lie, I don't want to
fall under it's traps.

As repeated again and again, I'm the kind of
person who usually follows my feelings and
emotions without thinking of the consequences it
might bring.



I hate the sight of it. I hate how it makes
me feel insecure about stuff that I know is not
true. But somehow, my mind keeps on making these
ridiculous thoughts. I can't stop it even though
I want to so much.

Insecurity. Yes. I still have it running inside
of me. Trust is the key but sometimes insecurity
kills everything. It's hard for me to let go
of this feeling and I seriously do not
know why myself.

Along the way, I've been hurt. I've been lied to
and I've been left. Maybe that's the reason why
I'm having such thoughts. I have trust in you.
In us. But somehow, something will just ruin it.
Ugh. I hate this. I need to seriously learn the
ways of changing myself to be a person who trusts
more and make less assumptions.


The eyes lie.

Pouring My Heart Out.

I'm not going to lie anymore.
I'm not going to say that this does
not hurt me at all.
I'm gonna throw it all out once and for all.

I miss you.
I miss how we were so close back then
but now we're so far apart.
I miss hearing us both laugh to a joke together.
I miss how we would hold hands and
sing our hearts out to our favourite songs.
I miss your smile. Funny, I don't see it
on you as often anymore.
I miss how I used to tell you stuff, though
minor, it means a lot to me that you would
take the time to listen.


If I could have one wish,
I'll wish for us to be friends again.
Not this. Not strangers.
FRIENDS.
The closest ever that we can get.

Is it me? If it is, I am truly sorry if
I had hurt you in any way. It's unintentional.
However, tell me what I did wrong and I won't
do it again.

Yes, I think about this so much.
Why? Because I care.
Because I want this to be exactly
like the way it was.
No wall between us. No awkwardness.
Please.

It's hurting me real deep.


Friendship is important to me.
Cause without friends, I've really got
no one else to turn to.
So please, if I've hurt you in any way.

I'm sorry.

Biasness.

Have you ever felt as though you're
pushed aside? Your feelings and emotions
don't count anymore.
Have you ever felt as though you're not
given the equality of attention?
Or the respect that you deserve.

Biasness.
Something that has been everyone's
frenemy.
You'll like it if it's given towards you.
However, everyone hates it if it's given
against you.

When it's given towards you, you feel as though
you're wanted and supported.
However, do realise that this might just
disappear anytime sooner or later.
So, appreciate it as much as possible because
you might never know.
In just a blink of an eye, that attention,
that respect, is gone.

However, when you don't receive it at all,
you'll probably feel as though you're useless.
Unwanted.
The words that haunts me. Haunts you.
Haunts everyone.
No one likes being left out.
No one likes to not be given the attention.
No one likes disrespect.
Nonetheless, when you face this, never tell yourself
"I'm useless and unwanted"
Tell yourself,
"I am useful and wanted, you just havent seen me shine yet"


Never neglect a person because you're giving
the other more attention than needed. You might
just hurt a number of hearts.

My hearts broken.
However,
"I'm useful and wanted. You just haven't seen me shine yet!"


Goodnight.

National Day? NOOOO! HAPPY BIRDDAY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR NIECE!:)

Wish you all the best in everything
that you do:)
The most awesomest Niece I will ever
have:) No one can replace you.

She's always there for me:)
She makes me smile and laugh.
Though we weren't really that close last time,
I'm glad that we are now.
If not, I wouldn't have known that
I have such a wonderful
and beautiful niece like you!:)

Love you forever and always!
<3

(the pic size is too big though. sorry.)