Here we go again.

When I thought every of the negative has
ended, it has started all over again.
I've tried so much not to lose my
grip but apparently, I can no longer do so.

It hurts so much knowing that I've put so
much effort and then failing over and over
AGAIN.

When will I ever learn?
My feelings of anger and distrust is just
to test out my level of patience over a
particular situation but apparently I
over-use it and make situations even more
complicated than it already is.

I have learnt not to blame anyone but myself
for everything that's happening because why?
Because no one lives my life for me.
I make a decision and I bear with my own consequences.


One question though,
out of all this, what do I get? Nothing.
So how am I supposed to eliminate all these
troubles happening in my life?
Am I suppose to run away from my problems
or am I supposed to act like nothing's wrong or
am I suppose to walk away from people?
Tell me what to do because right now,
I have got to be the most clueless person ever.


I'm trying to hold on tight to whatever's left of
me that is strong enough to pull this through alone.
yes, Alone.
Won't depend on anyone in particular anymore.
The people we love are the ones that will
hurt us the most.


Never knew I could be feeling this way.